So its been awhile since I posted but after a hard year & going through a ton of tests & doctors Eric will be having a back fusion surgery next Tuesday. I'm excited & scared out of my mind for this surgery & results. So many things can go wrong with it yet the possibility for him to be out of pain & mobile again its just a real hard place to be at. Its a 6 hour surgery omg wtf am I supposed to do for 6 hrs waiting for the results? oh well I will find a way to deal with it all as best as I can.